Let it go... Be smart, like Elsa. I will be honest - I haven't devoted much time to thinking about my past over the last 4 months. After the first week with my new full time employers I was probably in some culture shock. After I sat down and got some of the negativity haunting me down ...
Truth be told
You know how when your too close to a situation - it's almost impossible to see the full extent of what's going on? I think I've been in one of those situations for going on 15 years. To fill in some blanks: PLOT TWIST. I quit my job of almost 15 years (which I have referred ...
“I’ve never known anything more dangerous than my own mind…”
I've had a real struggle the last two weeks. I've had Influenza A for a while now and every little action has been harder than it should be. Getting up is hard. Working my main job is hard. Working my second job is hard. Housekeeping is hard. Relating to people is hard. It's all been harder ...
PLOT TWIST!
So here I am... on a Tuesday, middle of the day... at home. Am I sick? No - well kinda, but that's a longer story. No, I am officially unemployed for the first time in my adult life. I shouldn't say that. I am actually self employed... but I think that's just semantics at this point. What ...
The enigmatic concept of Self Respect
Self Respect is defined as pride and confidence in oneself. I'm so sad. Not depressed, no I don't mean depressed. I mean sad. Like I don't feel like I can possibly manage a smile. Like the slightest word would have be burst into tears. Sad. It started last week while I was applying for leave. Leave, ...
As I am…
I don't know if I've written about it before. But for the longest time - as long as I can remember, I hated myself. I hated 100 different things about the way I looked, walked, ran, worked, thought... you name it, I hated it. I would say all to frequently that the only thing I liked about ...
Pitch
I’m a Tenpin Bowler - usually at this point I hear fits of laughter from whoever I’m talking to. Followed by being told it’s not a sport. Yes, really, I go to Tenpin Bowling competitions. Yes, it’s a sport. And yes, it’s a source of constant disappointment that people react that way. I have been ...
BFF
Today (or perhaps "last night" I really struggle with the time difference) something wonderful happened. A long time friend of mine had her first child - a child that was so desperately wanted I'm not sure it could be put into words. I'm sitting here scrolling through gift ideas to find the perfect one to ...
Maxed out
I had my review last week... I had my butt cheeks clenched for days considering I knew that my GI would probably not approve of my choices in holiday eating establishments. I had the worst feeling that my support person (my husband) would have his phone out showing my doctor that I was eating God ...
IBD stands for Inflammatory Bowel Disease
This is a very brief post because, quite literally, my panties are in a bunch about something I just read.... Having been born with the assorted party pack of autoimmune disorders I get sent a lot of medical reading - from a lot of different sources. Today I was sent a story about links between two chronic ...