I’m sick. Pretty darn sick. Should have gotten to the doctors, sick.
Yes – probably my fault, I thought I had kicked this cold/flu to the curb yesterday so I started taking all my immunosuppressants again last night. Hindsight tells me — not such a good idea. I am running a fever – which is very very bad. It generally means secondary infection – which I can’t fight off. So what am I doing at home alone? A very good question. It seems I have gone back to my old ways of playing hard bitch – which isn’t going to get be far. So, I guess this is the true indication of how much shit I am in, taking all this medication can make even a cold grow teeth to bite me in the arse.
Other than that – my meeting regarding Crohns and UC got put back to next week – a good thing considering I look like I have crawled out of hell right now… The raincheck wasn’t even my doing – so I don’t even look bad. I guess sometimes things like this are meant to happen. I am still looking forward to the meeting – I am hoping that it opens doors for me as both a Crohns sufferer and a motivated and ambitious marketer. I feel like I am ready to be more than what I am at the moment. Sick or not, I am still the same person and I have the same dedication to my peers, my work and my profession as I did 12 months ago. I think even more so now – its odd. I really did need this holiday to start putting things in prospective. I needed it for a lot of reasons.
I made a big decision on Boxing Day – that there will be no New Years resolutions for me this year. You can change your life at anytime of year – it doesn’t need to start on the 1/1 . That’s not the point though – I mean the first day of the year is always good to set goals – you should just no limit yourself to setting them or starting them on that day. There are plenty of good days to make a change during the year, 365 in fact – the most important thing is that you are ready to accept it – change that is. So, no resolutions for me. I am making one commitment that this year I will make a difference. I will make a difference in my field and in the businesses of my clients and I will make a difference in the lives of the people who have chronic illness. I will start to change the way its perceived and speak out against the doctors and medical practitioners who say that “it can’t be something serious”. It can be – I am living proof of that. I will push to make a difference in the lives of people who have Crohns and Colitis – even if thats just helping the people who read this – although I am hoping to achieve more than that in the year to come. There are better treatments for this disease – we need consideration for the pharmaceutical companies profit margin to be taken out of the equation – medicine should be about treating people, not just about treating the “disease” or making money. There is a cure for our diseases out there – they just need the resources to find it.
What can one person do? Well, I guess we’re going to find out.
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