"I get you more now, your like an Island of one.... You had to be." This is so messy. I debated for a long time whether to put it down - but I feel like it's been rolling around in my head for a while so perhaps it's a good time to get it out in ...
Glass towers….
Warning: This post is probably going to contain some of the most graphic language I have ever used in a blog in my entire life. Why? Because I'm not sure my regular, every day words can express my disgust at what's happened to me in the last few days. I was born into this world broken. And ...
“You’re not allowed to be sick here”
I have had a volatile relationship with my parents for about the last... er.... 6 or 7 years. Why? You know, I'm not really sure. After my first divorce in 2004 I became pretty fiercely independent. To some extent, I think that's been a personality trait that has helped with my illness. In the last 2 ...
The day after…
So there I was - waking up to the the first Crohn's free morning in my life... It was surreal. Painful, but surreal. I didn't sleep much during the night - as advised by the nursing staff I did use the pain medication I had to get as much rest as possible, but with hourly obs... ...
The day of…
It felt like forever away whilst I was working through my mysterious heart problem – then all of a sudden it was here. The day I dreaded – but also the day of my salvation.
The day before….
Wracked with nerves I prepared for my small bowel resection to hopefully curb my out of control Crohn’s Disease.
When you feel like giving up… remember why you started
After a lifetime of fighting and three years of medication that at times could be worse than Crohn’s itself, I decided that surgery was my only recourse.
Relapse
"Don't ask the price I paid... I must live with my quiet rage." I think that's whats getting to me. The price I paid - for only a few weeks of remission... I've known I've been in relapse for a few weeks now. It started with that intense exhaustion that can't be explained away by "a few ...
My lowest point.
Tell me, how low do you have to get to truly believe that you are getting used and disrespected at work because you are not pretty enough? Well ladies and gentlemen, I have reached that point. Friday I just sat in the car sobbing because the only conclusion I could think of that I was getting used ...
Psychological Involvement
I've been treated for Crohn's disease for two whole years - and I'm into my third. On contact, a Crohn's patient with active disease is usually put on a moderate course of a corticosteriod called Prednisone. Its used to treat a range of autoimmune diseases on contact or as patients come out of remission. So its ...