Here I am… procrastinating by writing a blog rather than working…. yes I am happy about being a Graphic Artist, but I am finding it hard to get that illusive work/life balance.  Who am I kidding, I never had it.  If I wasn’t doing my art I would be working into the night on my full time jobs work.

It makes the time pass faster until Stocker gets home and there is the money… but I think the real thing that’s going on in my mind is perhaps I can grow this to the point it will be self sustaining and I can take a break.   I really do think its the money first and foremost come to think of it  Does that make me sound shallow?  Humm, I prefer to think it makes me sound… ambitious.  There are things that we want, that we want to do.  On our wages alone, we are not going to be able to do them… so, here I am.  We can have it “all” or so to speak – we just have to bust our butts to do it.

Aside from my procrastication and “ambition”, we have seen the first signs that the year from hell might be drawing to a close.  The first lot of paperwork from BankWest arrived.  Wrong of course – but they are fixing it and backdating the change.  For those of my wonderful readers who aren’t aware – we bought a house last year and got the finance through a bank in Australia called BankWest.  We were put on the worst mortgage product in the industry and are currently paying 7.30% interest… After a very long, and what Stocker considered very controlled “discussion” with a product manager at a branch – we have been rolled onto the premium product with a rate of 6.70% – in real terms that’s $120.00 a month, which will cover my medication.  This might not sound like a lot – but its an amazing relief to us.  Finally, we can take a breath, catch up and not be so worried to be accounting for every cent.  Hell, come next year, we might even be able to see ourselves free for a night or two, more dependent on how much work I get.

All these banking issues starting to flare around the same time I did (no pun intended).  It all happened at once.  Bam – diagnosis, Bam – medication, Bam – 5 interest rate rises…. If I was dealing with just one thing at a time, perhaps I would have done so with a bit more poise and grace – but its times like these you have to just push on through – no matter how messy it gets.

I am still sick from the cold I wrote about last week – and yeah – it hit me harder than I guess it would have in the past.  I had to take another day off work – but I felt better for taking care of myself before worrying about other people… Perhaps that’s a habit I need to get in.  My joints still feel like the have gravel in them and there is a stray razor blade in my throat… but I am functioning and now I have an idea of what to expect when I get sick.  I do need to buy a thermometer though and watch out for the magic 38 degrees.  If I pass 38 – I need to get me to a doctor or A&E without passing go or collection $2 (thought $200 was a bit rich in today’s day and age).

I have made friends with another Australian Crohns person on Facebook – I haven’t spoken to many Australian’s with the condition so I look forward to getting some more information from them.

For now though – I better get back to work, logos and business cards don’t make themselves – kinda wish they did though….