I've had a real struggle the last two weeks. I've had Influenza A for a while now and every little action has been harder than it should be. Getting up is hard. Working my main job is hard. Working my second job is hard. Housekeeping is hard. Relating to people is hard. It's all been harder ...
05Sep 2017
PLOT TWIST!
So here I am... on a Tuesday, middle of the day... at home. Am I sick? No - well kinda, but that's a longer story. No, I am officially unemployed for the first time in my adult life. I shouldn't say that. I am actually self employed... but I think that's just semantics at this point. What ...
02May 2017
The enigmatic concept of Self Respect
Self Respect is defined as pride and confidence in oneself. I'm so sad. Not depressed, no I don't mean depressed. I mean sad. Like I don't feel like I can possibly manage a smile. Like the slightest word would have be burst into tears. Sad. It started last week while I was applying for leave. Leave, ...
15Apr 2017
As I am…
I don't know if I've written about it before. But for the longest time - as long as I can remember, I hated myself. I hated 100 different things about the way I looked, walked, ran, worked, thought... you name it, I hated it. I would say all to frequently that the only thing I liked about ...
28Mar 2017
Pitch
I’m a Tenpin Bowler - usually at this point I hear fits of laughter from whoever I’m talking to. Followed by being told it’s not a sport. Yes, really, I go to Tenpin Bowling competitions. Yes, it’s a sport. And yes, it’s a source of constant disappointment that people react that way. I have been ...
24Mar 2017
BFF
Today (or perhaps "last night" I really struggle with the time difference) something wonderful happened. A long time friend of mine had her first child - a child that was so desperately wanted I'm not sure it could be put into words. I'm sitting here scrolling through gift ideas to find the perfect one to ...
05Jul 2016
Completely redundant….
It's so stupid. Yesterday afternoon I came home and wrote a political piece. My world was the same I was angry about the same things, hopeful about the same things. Life was just chugging away as normal. I cooked dinner... we watched a TV show... Stocker submitted his latest paper for uni... then he sat me ...
04Jul 2016
Polarised
It’s funny I’m writing this on the US holiday of independence. Much of the time American politics is bashed and recently it’s been the source of more memes than Game of Thrones - admittedly I’ve giggled at more than a few. Strange thing is - the state of American politics isn’t even nearly half the circus ...
27Jun 2016
Why we’re always broke…
Going back even 3 years - the thought of having less than $5k in savings at any one time (for an emergency) would cause me so much stress - it would keep me awake at night (or, that could of just been the Prednisone)… things have really really changed for me and for us. I’m pleased ...
06Jun 2016
Already at acceptance
So - I finally had a moment with my sister on the weekend and she is the first person I have physically told that I’m out of remissions. I text my best friend and, well Stocker was there. I think I’ve had problems with getting it out of my mouth. I think I’ve had problems ...
